February 11, 2017 was when I hit five months in my loc journey and that was the roughest month, hands down.
There is a phase that I often hear when people of are in the early stages of their loc journey and it's called the "Ugly Phase". It's a phase where your hair is going through a lot of changes and anyone who doesn't know what you're doing will think you have just given up on life. The reality is this phase is the most transformative phase in your loc journey. Your locs are budding, growing, frizzing, forming all at the same time.
I knew the phase was coming and being the optimistic person I am and I envisioned myself breezing through this phase unbothered. It didn't happen that way. I tell people now, that it was during this phase, that I avoided the mirror and my only thoughts were, "Push through".
Not only was this a transformative period for my locs but for myself personally. Before starting my locs, I was going through my own personal challenges. I am not sure how everyone else works through their obstacles in life but my process usually goes like this:
Phase 1 - The challenge/obstacle hits me
Phase 2 - I'm very introspective, analyzing what has happened
Phase 3 - The emotions I have held off, began to surface
Phase 4 - My emotions take over, I feel sadness, anger, hurt, guilt, regret, etc
Phase 5 - I find calm within the eye of the storm
Phase 6 - While still feeling emotions, I decide to learn from the lesson and push through
Phase 7 - I start to distance myself from the challenge with one step at a time
Month five with my locs, the ugly phase, was also phase six in my own personal life, I was pushing through. In month six, I made a loc update video and when I go back to watch the video, I realize that my update wasn't about my locs but instead where I was personally, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
Just remember that after Winter, must come Spring.